Ordinary Guy

I think I know now.

I know now why I choose to remain unpredictable.

And I hate to admit this but I am afraid.

I am afraid of people getting bored of me, once again.

Which is why I remain a mystery. Not gonna lie, I'm scared. I'm scared that you'd find out I'm just an ordinary guy.

Every time I've been with someone and loved them I'd be all in ... but then eventually they would discover that I am but an ordinary guy who they no longer find intriguing.

I am afraid of being found boring, once again.

Wrote something a while ago about past hurt, and how it's in the past and how it should not define how I love now.

Heart please be reminded of that.

It's okay to be afraid. But don't stay there bro. Do not allow fear to keep you from what God has for you.

Out there are people who will love you even when they get to know your deepest secrets, deepest fears, people who won't get bored of you.

Don't hide away from love, don't be scared.

Behind my unpredictability, behind all the mystery. Is an ordinary guy.

Who yearns for love and companionship.

- Nicolas